he & i both want to be liked. it's almost a need. i need to be liked. not because i'm insecure, but because the thought that someone doesn't like me causes a physical hurt. there's a reason someone doesn't like you, and it's usually because you've hurt them or done something to make them feel badly. (there ARE times *cough*evildawn*cough* when it truly is nothing you've done, they just suck as human beings.)
i don't want to hurt anyone or do anything to make them feel badly, and so when they don't like me, it hurts me. and i see that in mr. danza, too. he pours his heart out to his kids - even kids who aren't in his classes! - and when he doesn't see results, it causes him some pain.
*sigh* *HUGS*
okay, enough of that! i really enjoyed my Teach marathon, and even though my heart aches for his heartache, i think he'll be (or is) okay!
and today was a GREAT day! i woke up on time from some really odd dreams involving bret, boo, bran & bay, and a couple random ppl, a bank heist, a movie, a theatre w/ individual seats like those on the plane in The Wedding Date, secret passages, Adam Canty from highschool and his sexy voice (and eyes - that man has the coolest shade of blue eyes i have ever seen!)... it was goofy but good!
work was marvelous - ordered some tastefully simple , and yankee candles to support the Y's daycare program. got a LOT accomplished. not everything, of course. *laugh* subway for lunch was delish, altho my sandwich was not as tasty as it has been in the past. i'm not sure what it was missing! maybe pickles. i thought about putting them on & then i got distracted by something shiny. lol
after work, my loan check had arrived, so i went to the bank to deposit it, went to hardee's for a mushroom swiss - which i ate w/o the bun so that i could enjoy a pumpkin pie from mcdonald's as well...lol i was celebrating! - and then mailed allllllll my bills at the post office! i can't even fully describe the awesome feeling i have knowing i'm all paid up on my car, medical & lab bills (til my appointment friday, at least), interest on a CC & my school loan which is currently in forbearance, People magazine til November 2011, was able to send some $$ to QCCS... and i'll be able to pay mom back the $$ i owe her. AND still have money in the bank, and payday to look forward to!
which is good because my monitor has started blinking out & so i need to get a new one. happily, i can get a lovely 15" flat screen for less than $100! : ) i'm also TOTALLY stoked about christmas shopping! and i do need to call the dentist.
oh! when i got home, i had 2 postcrossings as well as the check! : )
from sheila in great britain. she lives in the area where the castle used for Hogwarts also resides. how awesome!! : )
from maria in finland. this is an illustration from a finnish children's series about a dog & a cat who are best friends! lovely!
i need to get some stamps soon, too. and i am as ever on the lookout for more postcards. time to scour jana's fb albums & get some ordered, as well as do some hunting on etsy. love love!
and that, my dearlings, is all i have for you tonight! tomorrow should be busy, and hopefully i'll get to WM after work. i need my Rx & a couple other things, and perhaps i'll do a little shopping. i'm on the hunt for christmas blankets, peeps! if you know of somewhere around here that has any cool ones, please do share that knowledge! : )
take care & be blessed. ttfn!
I love how you can relate to Tony and love how honest you are when you said you have a need to be liked. That is a natural feeling and one I know very well too! You have such a big and caring heart, I love that so much about you!!!
ReplyDeleteI wish I had the kind of dreams you have :) I love reading about them!
Congrats on being paid up on all your bills with some left over to enjoy, that is SO lucky! I feel like things have been SO tight as far as my financial situation lately :( UGH! But I know that God will ALWAYS provide no matter what!
Sounds like you had a good day love :) Hope you have a great rest of the week!
Loved the dream story! Those always are fun to read! :)
ReplyDeleteAlso, I know the feeling with the bills! It is so liberating! I am glad that you felt that too! It is truly a glorious feeling :) And huzzah for inexpensive, nice new computer screens! Bonus! :)
but boo to dentists. not a fan.
i was so not a fan of dentists when i was little, because mine didn't believe in novacaine - or, rather, believed in using JUST this amount & no more, even when that amount didn't work on someone...
ReplyDeletebut then, in jr high that dentist retired & we had to find a new one. i'm still w/ that dentist today. he (and his new partner as well) is WONDERFUL! when i have to have work done, it's still uncomfortable, but they make VERY sure i don't feel any pain. : ) love them!
i love writing about my dreams and am so happy to hear reading about them is enjoyable. more enjoyable than scary, anyway! heh. and God definitely provides for us! He's awesome!! : )
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