part 1: monday blues

today was, in part, a sad day.  suicide once again has touched my life, thankfully only peripherally this time.  i understand the pain suicide causes a family, because it caused my family pain when great uncle ken chose that path.  it still causes me, and my family, pain.  today, it was a young man i'd never met, but i know someone who loves him.  i know his family and friends are devastated today.  i know they would have loved for him to come to them, and talk to them, and let himself feel their love rather than the hopelessness he must have felt before taking his own life.  


i said above "when great uncle ken chose that path."  but i don't really believe anyone truly "chooses" suicide.  not the way we choose what to wear, what to eat, how to worship... suicide comes from a true loss of hope, a loss of possibility, a loss of SELF.  


there are resources if you're feeling hopeless.  if you're feeling a loss of self.  


there is HOPE.  Jesus loves you, your family loves you, your friends love you.  if you're feeling like these things aren't true, TALK to someone.  talk to them before the feelings of depression pull you too far under.  


i love you.  i might not know you, but i didn't know this young man today, and i feel so much love for him, for his family.  i pray that his soul is given a second chance.  


http://www.hopeline.com/


until next time... *HUGS*