three

today was three emotions - mostly happiness, because there was lots to keep me busy, it was payday, julie was back, trish, al, megan & i went to mongolian grill for lunch, i watched some episodes of buffy that i have no recollection of ever seeing, and i treated myself to capriotti's for dinner.  i was going to try something new, but the bobbie called to me & i ordered that again.  : )  i'm so blessed and grateful for the blessings. 

and yet, there are two other emotions that prevailed at various points today...

annoyance, at some shenanigans going on at work.  idk why some ppl get away with the stuff they do.  but then again, i do kinda understand why they act the way they act.  i might not LIKE it, but i understand it.  i try to explain it to other ppl, but they don't like OR understand, and they just think i'm trying to change their minds.  so... of course i'll keep defending those i defend because i am who i am.  and i'm not perfect, so i don't expect others to be! 

sadness, because sergio is still in such a state of ... he is fighting for his life.  we are praying for a miracle.  literally, he needs a miracle.  and he's already had so many, so many things have fallen into place to be of healing for him - and then he contracts this virus and whammo.  they are on the very, very last treatment they can do for him, and we are all just praying so hard, and in such great numbers.  matthew 18:20 says, "For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."  there are WAY more than two or three gathering together in His name for sergio!  in matthew 7, "7Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."  Lord, we are asking for HEALING for sergio, we are seeking Your WILL and WISDOM in this situation.  we are knocking on that door, dear Jesus, we are begging for a miracle for sergio.  amen. 

my heart is aching for my friends, but is filled with happiness and love, too.  hearts are funny things like that, they can hold so many conflicting emotions at the same time! 

i seriously wanted to go to bed before 1 tonight, but alas, that goal was not reached.  still, i think now is the time to sleep.  goodnight, good prayers, and ttfn.