*sigh*
so, today was okay other than the heat. hungry hobo w/ trish & her fam for lunch. matt actually talked, which was nice! he & megan are both very quiet til they get to know you, and i don't get to see matt as often as meg. (she & i IM back & forth now, which is fun!) holly & i decided to meet for lunch saturday & then shop for the IB & Willow Tree we want to get for mel & shawn & mckenzey. altho, dawn IM'd me an IB that might be perfect for kenzey, too, so we'll see if they have that in stock. i also have to remember to get a couple other gifts while i'm there.
mom called to see if i could meet her at WM after work, but i couldn't because of the visitation. i'm glad i got ahold of her, because she was able to go as well when she got off work. mel mentioned it, so i know it meant a lot to her.
when i got off work, i meant to pick up something quick for dinner, but for some reason that didn't happen! so when i got home, i only had 1/2 an hour before becca was due to be here. now, a normal person would make a sandwich or something equally as cool, and quick. not me, tho. oh no, i opened the freezer, saw pasta & thought, "oh! pasta! i could make a little dish of that in 10 minutes!" and of course that's what i fixed. it was delicious, and i did fix it, with sauce, in about 15 minutes, but hello stoves are HOT when cooking, and i didn't give myself any time to cool off!! seriously, i think that's why i'm still so warm. yeesh!
so, becca arrived about 5 minutes early - i'd just finished eating the pasta creation! - & we headed to the funeral home. it wasn't as small as i'd imagined, which was good, and they had powerful fans blowing so it wasn't as uncomfortably warm as outside! shawn & mel looked good, if a little too skinny, which is understandable! kenzey was running around, being a little girl, and that was good to see. flowers everywhere. video playing a montage of photos of sergio. i teared up while signing the guest book, and almost lost it after hugging mel & shawn because i didn't want to STOP hugging them. i want to wrap them up in bubble wrap & bring sergio back - but completely healed... and he IS completely healed, he's just not here, so round & round that goes in my head. i just want to take their pain away. i know, it's what everyone wants to do. i couldn't go to the casket. i thought about it. i glanced at it while we were in line. then i decided that was close enough. hurt hurt hurt! ache! hurt! ache! *tears* *sigh*
as we were looking at pictures of sergio when he was a baby, misti came up, recognizing becca. we chatted for a few minutes & met her daughter, who is sergio's age, and they were best friends, and she was very ... composed. nice girl, too. i enjoyed visiting w/ misti, but i was mellllllting. we had to've been standing in the hottest part of the house! as soon as we started to head out the door, i walked in the path of a major fan and it felt soooo good. if only we'd been standing THERE for 20 minutes! : )
we got back to my house about a quarter to 8, then sat in the car talking about old classmates for an hour! heh. becca is one of those perfect childhood friends. we can reminisce & talk about old times, but we are also friends NOW and talk about our lives and families and jobs and everything that makes us US today, not just 20 years ago. God has blessed me with such amazing, wonderful friends, lifetime friends, and i'm very thankful. and i still need to call sarah. dang it! *laugh*
i went inside about 9, but the pasta was all melted off & i was hungry. didn't want to FIX anything else, plus i needed to go to the gas station. so back out into the heat... i stopped at murphy & then decided a jr bacon cheeseburger from wendy's (conveniently located in the same WM parking lot) sounded good. then when i got up to the menuboard, SALADS. salads w/ baby greens & not iceberg. mmmm. i ordered a BLT Cobb w/ avacado ranch dressing. oh my heck, that dressing is delicious!! the salad was really good, too, except there WAS iceberg in the mix, and there was one type of leaf that was really strange tasting & i didn't like it. nor did i like the bleu cheese or feta, whichever they used on the salad. which is a pity, because i always WANT to like those cheeses... alas. earwax. (jk, it didn't taste like earwax. i don't think. tho, honestly, i'm not in the habit of eating earwax to know what would resemble its taste. ew. sorry. ew!)
anyway, what else? oh, i got a picture in the mail today, of my visiting teacher's new baby! he is, of course, adorable. : ) her companion teacher also had a baby around the same time, so i'm hoping for a picture soon!
no postcards today, which made me sad. i was going to scan some in to share with you! it's Postcrossing's 5th birthday, and i wanted to celebrate with postcards! ah well. before i go to bed, i will leave you with a couple of my favorites that i've gotten thru this project that holds a dear place in my heart!
okay, you only get the one postcard from micaela, which wasn't sent thru postcrossing, but that's where we met! : ) my computer decided to go all blue screen on my when i tried to add more photos. in safe mode. :( time to find a computer guru or get a new computer...
i hope your wednesday was not as heartbreaking or as melty. tomorrow is sergio's funeral, which is more heartbreak. after work, tho, the healing begins, because i get to see my boys. : ) friday is dinner w/ shannan, whom i haven't seen in too long! and i get to hang out w/ mom & leyton saturday, after lunch & the shopping mission w/ holly. all in all, good for healing. my heart will still always be holey and nicked, but that is the nature of hearts that have known love. there can be no love without pain, no matter what the storybooks tell you. the pain must be at the loss of the loved one, tho, and not at their hands. (sorry, rookie blue was about abuse, so i had to get my PSA out there...)
ttfn. : )
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