... and that is all.

i miss him.  i miss him.  i miss him.  i miss him.  i miss him.  i miss him.  i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

i dreamed of him last night.  and then tonight my friend kimmie wrote a little story about sitting on the bed with her dad, as he's sick with cancer and they talk and he comforts her saying everything will be fine. 

and the tears come.  and the heartache.  and it's been 3 1/2 years and i still think about him every day and i know i always will.  i want to hug him.  i want to hear his voice saying, "make it so, number 1."  i want him to call me and tell me to be ready to go on a road trip with him.  i want to watch the new harry potter movie with him.  i want leyton to know him. 

i want him back, and i know i can't have him back.  and i know i'll see him in Heaven.  and i know he's fine. 

but i miss him.  and that is all.